Slow Down Time
Thursday, April 10th, 2008
“Today is a gift; that’s why they call it “the present”.” -Unknown
I was sitting here tonight holding my daughter when a thought hit me. Tomorrow, she will be six weeks old! I just thought to myself, “Wow, where did the first six weeks go?” The time she has been here has gone by in the blink of an eye. It was just yesterday I was holding her for the first time.
For the past couple of weeks, I have been running around Bloomington like there is no tomorrow. I have been trying to complete my internship, finish my independent study class, finish my regular class, and have been trying to decide what I am going to do for money come summer time. I have not actually taken the time to just slow down and enjoy where I am at.
I am at a place in my life right now that I will NEVER get back. I have about a month until I graduate from college, I don’t have a lot of bills to pay, and most importantly, my daughter is still a baby. Today when I realized what I have been doing for the past few weeks, I wondered what it was all for. Why am I completely stressing out about things that will get done? Yes, it is very important that I graduate, but my stressing out about it is not going to make it happen any quicker.
It seems like my entire life I have been waiting on something to happen. I couldn’t wait to drive, I couldn’t wait to play college baseball, I couldn’t wait to…whenever I got where I wanted to be, I always wanted something more. Now, here I am, and I feel like all of the great things in my past flew by so quickly, and I never got the chance to appreciate or enjoy the moments I had until they had already gone by.
Now, I have the greatest thing in my life, Peyton, and I am doing the same thing. This time, it is not that I want more; it is that I am stressing out about what is going to happen in the future. If I do not break the cycle of looking ahead, I will one day be looking back on what I did not enjoy to the fullest with her.
